In year 1994, getting my share after selling my marital flat, my mum propose that I buy a 4rm flat. I have another 2 half step-brothers. I was unhappy coz she said, let my 1st step bro to stay in the master room while me & her, sharing in a common room, another for my 2nd step bro.
I told her, what if my 2 children will come & stay with me, she said.. since they still young, can sleep together with us.
i didn't expect my mum to be selfish that she only think of her 2 sons instead of her grandchildren that I told my mum, I'm using my share to buy the flat & yet the master room, I'm not the one.. who be staying in that I told her.. I decided not to buy instead I left home & presumed dead to everyone in the family.
I don't want to get involve with anyone even to the siblings, except to my 2 dear children.
They stayed with their paternal grandparents, after my divorce.
After about 2years, I missed my mum.. so, I call her but my 2nd brother answer the phone, I was shattered when he said 'your mum already dead, y u look for her' then he hanged up, it's like a knife cut thru my skin when I heard that but y, no obituary to inform.. So, I took it.. as she is dead.
I have lived by my own without asking anyone helps, until year 1998.. I bought my own flat & my son came to stay with me, my daughter still at grandparents.
I have a best friend, we work together in year 1990.. I took upon her as my elder sister even though we are different races.
In year 2010, my younger sister manage to trace me, she works in Starhub, I wondered.. how the company allow their staff to do such a thing by searching confidential record even though it's their family.
Then, what I heard.. shock me, my mum was still alive & healthy & for that donkey years.. I was told by my 2nd brother that she was dead!!
I didn't get to see her, for those 16yrs.. And for the very 1st time, I met my mum.. arrange by my younger sis at my elder sister's house - void deck.
We are 3 sisters & 1 brother. I'm the 3rd one (same father & mother)
For what my 2nd bro did, I will never forgive him till I died! I hate him to the core! He owe me an apology!!!!
I connected to my mum once again but not really close perhaps the years that made us, slightly apart.
Everytime I seen my 2nd bro, I always ignore him.. because my hate to him had change into a rock.
And for the 1st time ever, my younger sis bring me to my elder sis's work club, there were machines everywhere & that 1st time, I step into a jackpot room.
I don't have money at all, not even a single cent but she fetch me.. I just follow since I'm still jobless, nothing to do at home.
I was so excited when she gave 10pcs of $1/coin, she told me to put into the slot & press the button, like a primary school student. I follow what she said.
That 1st coin, won me of $1k.. She took the money, I asked her.. I thought it's mine but then she said, it's her money that I'm playing with.. So, I see.. she just making use of me because it was my 1st time!!!
My friend, Jennifer.. ask, how much does my younger sis gave me, since I win for her.. I told her, nothing.. She just send me home.
Jennifer was very angry that she told me, not to follow anymore!!
After few months, they never contacted me as I have found myself a job, no chance for them, to meet up.
My expenditure are very high, when I'm not working.. I don't have much cpf & I need to pay my flat by cash, $576/monthly.
I turned to licenced moneylender to pay for my mortgage but the monies not enough that I rolled about 20 to meet my dead-lines.
I often haywired, stressful coz I don't know, where to borrow? Jennifer have her own family.
In year 2012, I approached my mum to loan me $35k but she insisted don't have as she have kept it in fixed deposit to buy her own SA in year 2014.
I asked my elder & younger sis, for financial help but they act blur & ignore all my sms-es & calls.
I even told my mum, I will pay her.. the same interest as the bank if she can lent to me but she kept deaf. The day, I wanted to plea her again to loan me, she left to Malacca, so.. I didn't get anything.
All my 2 sisters & my mum shun me, because I want a loan.
So, I took a drastic turn, I approached a moneylender but he tried to cheat, he called a property agt to view my flat, the lady agt ask me to sign some documents & the lender ask me, to meet him at law firm but I didn't attend coz I find the whole matter, very fishy..
I report the lender to the police ( I can never forget this lender's face)!!!
Then, I approached another lender, the same procedure except this one, more professional because he was a property director.
He loaned me the $35k to pay all the 20 moneylenders, he will keep asking me.. whether I still have anymore but never tell him, he seems to want me, to clear everything.
After I sold my flat in year 2012, I paid the lender $35k plus the interest, outstanding HDB, agent commission & law fees, my balance of $16k was given to me.
I gave my children $2k each, the rest I kept.
Upon selling my flat, about 6months later.. my younger sis asked me to join her, in another club & I followed her again because she fetch me from my workplace.
She ask whether I have $$, I nodded & told her.. I play using my own coz otherwise she will take away the winning again, knowing that I'm using hers.
I lost about $149/- I bring about $150/- & my last $1/- gave me a sweet luck, I won the jackpot of $4.2k
My sis was excited, asking me.. since they bring me there, I should give a bit, so I gave $200 & told them, I'm going to the restroom, I didn't step in instead I took the shuttle bus & went to Northpoint.
They called me & I told her.. that I went home but I'm still at the mall.
To bank in, my winnings.
I told Jennifer the same night, she told me.. luckily I didn't use their money to play. I make arrangement to visit my daughter & her family.
There are alot of up & down between me & them. I always told them, I'm broke.. so, as if they lost or misplace their stuff, I'm the only person they ask if I'm in their house. Sometimes they took me as their maid to clean their house, to the extreme of giving me their hse keys while they went overseas, I show Jennifer the sms that she said, they are too much to think that way as though I'm not their sis.
In year 2014, my mum got her SA.. & we, sisters go to her house to clean up & the fridge technician gave her, the manual brochure.. but that night, my mum called me & ask, where is the manual, how will I know.. when I never seen it, told her to check with my sis, she said they themselves ask to check with me.
After few days, her fridge gave problem, she ask me to go over.. I told her, I'm not a technician & don't have the brochure, how to do.. she said, found it.. in my sis's bag!!!
But I told my mum, just call the technician better coz she very impatient when things never go her way.
My younger sis recently, ask me to join her.. at son's sch award, I went to the school after that, went to the hawker ctr after finishing, she couldn't find her vehicle's key & search all the stalls, she went.
I sat opposite her & her son, next to me.. I sling my pouch & more comfortable, I slip it under the table.
As she can't find, she ask me to open my pouch, perhaps it is inside, how can it be.. so, I let her search, she don't know how I feel to be accuse like that, even her son was saying.. how come she do that to me??
I keep my cool because the place are crowded that I ask her to search her bag again & she found it, inside another compartment & there are no apology from her, for checking my pouch earlier.
Again, I told Jennifer.. she just nodded..
And now, my elder sis just invited me, to her house.. for her son's engagement, is not that I don't want to go but then I don't want to meet the 2nd bro & secondly, if lost something again, I am their scapegoat.. I am very wary of that!!!
To them, just because I am broke & no money means I am the thief.
I had enough of them, labelling me as their black sheep.
